coffee on a saturday morning doesn't seem quite complete unless you're there. the cats are anxious for food. my stomach is making familiar noises, telling me to raid "the fridge of disappointment." can you believe its november? 2009 has slipped on by. i surely won't miss it. it has been one rough year. i keep telling myself to stay positive for the new year approaching. 2010 will be something great, because i said so. this year will be full of pictures. laughter. fun. hugs. love?
i never truely appreciated what i had until it was taken away. somethings, i stole back. somethings, came back to me. others, you must EARN back. and somethings, i never want back.
as fall turns into winter, i just realize that what happens..happens for a reason. what's done is done. no going back. these last two months will be what i make it. a great thanksgiving. a great birthday. a fourth anniversary. yule. christmas. family and friends are what comes down to it. "don't push them away. they are always going to be there."
mistakes turn into lessons. these lessons of life help us grow. growing is going to help for the future. the future is now.

i love every little thing about you.